Have you ever had a day like this?
Feeling gray sky, low tide and garbled?
Lacking direction?
Sans focus?

On days like this
I go to the coast
where the fresh water
flows into the saltwater sea.
I try to hydrate my head and my heart.

I breathe in.
I breathe up.
I breathe out.

I stand on firm ground,
albeit shifting.

I reach in.
I reach up.
I reach out.

I arrive.

And I have a heart to heart
talk with myself, who says
I…BELIEVE…in YOU!
You’re on the right track.

I let my Self point which way to go next.
“Here, go with the flow,
Go join the whole”

Seriously, THAT way!
You’re not a salmon.
You can’t swim upstream.
You must go toward the ocean.

My soul could feel my self hesitation.
She put on her seashell amulet bracelet
as if pushing up sleeves.
She pulled out the green arrow,
The unmistakable way-pointing sign.

I gazed at the arrow so long and so hard.
I wanted to trust its clear sense of direction.
But it wasn’t quite speaking my language.

My soul had a better idea.
She turned that green arrow into my heart.
The even more unmistakable way-pointing sign.

And my soul pointed the way once again.
This time I heard not only her voice
but my heart as it beat in agreement
Finally understanding the path.

We breathed in
We breathed out
We jumped in
to the flow of fresh water.

Who knows how long it will take to
make it down river,
How many high and low tides.
But I’m determined to go with the flow
toward the big picture ocean.

Call it underwater clarity.

I’m all in.